Sunday 6 April 2014

Finding the Words

We experienced both our greatest progress and then our most rapid disappointment recently in our ongoing project to extend our family.  These are not easy words to write and I have been struggling with whether or not to write them at all.  It was an adoption that did not complete at the last possible moment.  It is hard to write much about it in detail both because of the need to preserve to confidentiality but also to avoid revisiting, unnecessarily, such a painful episode.

The cloud has a silver lining.  We are more prepared than ever and next time I feel like I will better know the questions I want to ask and better understand how to make the hundreds of decisions one needs to make simultaneously.  Our agency and we know each other better too and I'm sure that will lead to more possibilities in the future.  The darkest hour, and this is very, very dark, can be, if not quite forgotten, banished for a while with a change of circumstances as the light of dawn rises.  Who knows what tomorrow or indeed the very next minute will bring?